Strange thoughts

Let us wait for the tide to turn
what do you fear?
What is worse than poverty?
The nice tastes of richdom.

They will spoil you
and lead you from your way.

It was quite a party
do you like that girl?
She has been very good to me
and yet she was very handsome.

With her to drown in eyes
and a brain to match mine.

There is nothing hidden about me
you will find me in my study
and I am most amazingly strong
in my own weak way.

Cause I carry my wearies on my shoulders
much like Atlas did the world.

What a singular thing!
How sweet and kind of you!
To tell me you have never
seen the likes of me before.

But then do tell me what has happened
with the world we live in.

But tell me truly now
can't you think of anything else
to say about me as I can say about you?
That it is very strange.

Cause I thought myself more deep
then the thoughts that define me.

Let us wait for the tide to turn
there is nothing to fear
I maybe poor in riches
but I am rich in thought

Even though they spoil me
and lead me from my way.

Storm

A storm is coming
I can feel it grow
it’s a feeling that I know
it’s a constant humming
in the back of my head
coming soon to blow.

I’ve been trying to ignore
to pretend that I’m in cover
but it's will to take me over
shakes me to my core
it ain't quite that small
it like a locust hovers.

I can hear it moan
I can hear its bitter cries
its time it abides.
not leaving me alone
I'm not really in control
underneath my skin it hides

And in the end
I’ll be no stronger of hand
I’ll be a useless form
I'll be no stronger of heart
I'll be tragically torn apart
if I can't control the storm

It tries to get to me
a fury in my fingertips
turning hands to angry fists
it doesn’t let me be
I’m slowly losing control
in rageful bliss

It speaks to me in dreams
crying all my lullabies
I try to stop a useless fight
I’m bursting on the seams
I’m losing all
there’s no redeem.

So in the end
I’ll have to make my stand
and try to keep my form
cause if I fail at heart
I'll be tragically torn apart
and loose control of the storm.

Sad eyes

You look at me with sad eyes
Your mouth smiles but your heart cries
Once full of dreams and fascination
Now you think you are stuck in damnation.

You put up a happy front for the world
But inside your mind you feel the hurt
You hide the truth and feed me lies
But you cannot betray your sad eyes.

You’ve lost all your tears, your eyes stay dry
You fear the release of the beast inside
It’s growing and waiting to get free
To still its hunger on you and me.

I see your world that you try to deny
You stumble in darkness, afraid of the light
You no longer search for the good inside
You’ve given up, I can see it in your eyes.

Shattered to pieces, all that you were
Living in sin, relishing hurt
That one time bright sparkle no longer shines
The shadow has set in your sad eyes.

No sense

I can't feel
my senses just feel cold.
No colors
seem to reach my soul.
I run
but there is no chance.
It tears me
to sacrifice it all.
But what to do?
I'm forced to let go.

I can’t feel
but your sorrow.
You won't forgive
but you'll be all right.
It tears me
that you will never know.
But what to do?
I have to let go.

Everything falls
to shattered pieces.
Only settling dust
remains.
When memories fade
into emptiness.
Only time will tell
if it has been in vain.

Go away

I'll never be
what you had in mind
out of reach
can’t reach that high
my road is gapped
can’t lead you blind
what you expect
I’m not that kind
I’m not an act
a show you play
and if you can’t get real
I’ll just go away.

Battle lost

You’ve lost the battle
lay down your arms
and hose with water
your flaming hearts.

Calm the storm
in your eyes
stop the tears
let them dry.

Remember
what you’re living for
you’ve lost the battle
but not the war.

I'll find you

You left with the rain
as the sky called your name
Can you hear it whisper?
Can you hear me whisper too?

You left your hometown
refusing to be found
but you stayed on my mind
I’ll find you.

You are not here
but still feel you near
we'll forgive and forget
and start all anew.

So long now gone
and so much done
but I keep having faith
I'll reach you

The rain has stopped
the streets have dried up
you can come home now
do you want too?

Maybe not
but I refuse to give up
so keep in mind
that I’ll find you.

Need

Can’t catch my breath
need to learn to trust
I’ve tried to do that

but to no avail.

Can you see my heart?
my agony?
hold me

in your embrace.

I'm on the edge
need to go, to step
I’ve turned around

so many times.

Can you see my soul?
my pain?
hold me

in your arms.

Nothing was real
faded away, broken down
save for my fear

tearing me down.

Can’t believe
need to take

what's left of me
and make
my heart a better place.